Of woes and joys

I am actually confused of whether I am contented or distraught.

I had to leave behind my treasured family and cross mountains over mountains to continue my studies. My mother then never wanted me to go to Sherubtse which is two days journey from my home, Paro. She could not get over the fear of I travelling alone for two days and living in a completely different environment for she is not used to keeping me away for a longer time in a distant place.

I was confused of whether I should go to Sherubtse or not. I, on one side was quite excited to go as I heard a lot of interesting events and trends in Sherubtse College. However I on the other side was dejected to leave behind my dear ones and go to live in a new society far away from home. But my father and sister invigorated me to go on and work out with the challenges to reach my point of destination.

Today I stand here among thousands who mostly speak their native language ‘sharchop’. They start their conversation in sharchop and end in Sharchop of which I hardly understand a sentence. I feel like I am totally an alien in this place. I try my best to adjust in this new society. I go on and attend my regular classes and other programs. Yes, I am happy as I have many friends around. We chat, go around and mingle together. They are the ones who light up my stay here in Sherubtse.

Bhut i just can't stop missing my family. I always get their image wandering around me. There is something inside me that forces me to think of them now and then. No matter how much I try to be happy with my friends, I always land up carrying the false smile on my face.